Dear Andy,
For the longest time I have felt this pain that has never gone away. It has finally subsided, at least enough to express my feelings about the situation. I have kept my feelings inside for too long and I feel the need to express them to you now.
There have been times where I have looked back on this situation, and have been crushed on the inside. For years I had to put up with the way you have treated me. There are times where you and I get along, but sometimes I feel that you should treat me with more respect. I am a person with feelings, and it may not be obvious but some of the things you say, even if you are trying to make a joke, hurt. I do not hate you for this, it is only human nature. I do however feel bad about everything that has happened between us.
I love you. You are my older brother. I look up to you. It may not show all the time, but you are very important to me. When you put me down like you sometimes do, it hurts. I do not know how to feel. You knock me down but I understand now. It is not out of hatred. You do not do it to hurt but to poke fun. It has made me a better person. I have grown stronger from what has happened. You have helped me greatly, even when you weren’t trying to. I feel like I may be treating Michael in the same way. Hopefully he will pull out the same goods as I have. I forgive and understand what has happened.
Love your brother,
Nick
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